Violet Bent Backwards Over the Grass — Chapter no 5

Never to Heaven

May my eyes always stay level to the horizon

may they never gaze as high as heaven

to ask why The whys in this lifetime i’ve found are inconsequential compared to the magic of the nowness which is the solution to most questions

there are no reasons and if there are, i’m wrong.

But at least i won’t have spent my life waiting looking for god in the clouds of the dawn

listening out for otherworldly contact 30 billion light years on

No I’ll let the others do the pondering and while they do i’ll be on my lawn reading something unsubstantial with the television on

i’ll be up early to rise though of course- but only to make you a pot of coffee

That’s what i was thinking this morning Joe-

that it’s times like this as the marine layer lifts off the sea from the view of our favorite restaurant that i pray that i may always keep my eyes level to your

eye line never downcast at the table cloth too nervous to share my innermost thoughts with you

You see Joe it’s times like this as the marine layer lifts off the sea on the dock where we’re standing that i think to myself there’s things you still don’t know about me like sometimes i’m afraid my sadness is too big and that one day you might have to help me handle it but until then-

May i always keep my eyes level to this skyline assessing the glittering new development

off the coast of Long Beach never to heaven

Because i have faith in man as strange as that seems in times like these and it’s not just because of the warmth i’ve found in your brown eyes- it’s because I believe in the goodness in me that it’s firm enough to plant a flag in

or a rosebud or to build a new life.

Never to Heaven

May my eyes always stay level to the horizon

may they never gaze as high as heaven to ask why May I never go where angels fear to tread so as to have to ask for answers in the sky The whys in this lifetime i’ve found are inconsequential compared to the magic of the nowness- the solution to most

questions

there are no reasons. and if there are- i’m wrong but at least i won’t have spent my life waiting looking for God in the clouds of the dawn or listening out for otherworldly contact 30 billion light years on No. i’ll let the others do the pondering

while i’ll be sitting on the lawn

reading something unsubstantial with the television on I’ll be up early to rise though of course- but only to make you a pot of coffee That’s what i was thinking this morning Joe that it’s times like this as the marine layer lifts off the sea from the view of our favorite restaurant that i pray that i may always keep my eyes level to your eyeline

never downcast at the tablecloth Yes Joe it’s times like this as the marine layer lifts off the sea on the dock with the candle lit that i think to myself there are things you still don’t know about me like sometimes i’m afraid my sadness is too big and that one day you might have to help me handle it

but until then may i always keep my eyes level to this skyline assessing the glittering new development

off of the coast of Long Beach never to heaven or revenant Because i have faith in man as strange as that seems in times like these and it’s not just because of the warmth i’ve found in your brown eyes but because i believe in the goodness in me that it’s firm enough to plant a flag in

or a

rosebud or to build a new life.