Paper Towns — Chapter no 14

14.

Monday morning, an extraordinary event occurred. I was late, which was

normal; and then my mom dropped me off at school, which was normal;

and then I stood outside talking with everyone for a while, which was

normal; and then Ben and I headed inside, which was normal. But as soon

as we swung open the steel door, Ben’s face became a mix of excitement

and panic, like he’d just been picked out of a crowd by a magician for the

get-sawn-in-half trick. I followed his gaze down the hall.

Denim miniskirt. Tight white T-shirt. Scooped neck. Extraordinarily

olive skin. Legs that make you care about legs. Perfectly coiffed curly

brown hair. A laminated button reading ME FOR PROM QUEEN. Lacey

Pemberton. Walking toward us. By the band room.

“Lacey Pemberton,” Ben whispered, even though she was about three

steps from us and could clearly hear him, and in fact flashed a faux-bashful

smile upon hearing her name.

“Quentin,” she said to me, and more than anything else, I found it

impossible that she knew my name. She motioned with her head, and I

followed her past the band room, over to a bank of lockers. Ben kept pace

with me.

“Hi, Lacey,” I said once she stopped walking. I could smell her perfume,

and I remembered the smell of it in her SUV, remembered the crunch of the

catfish as Margo and I slammed her seat down.

“I hear you were with Margo.”

I just looked at her.

“That night, with the fish? In my car? And in Becca’s closet? And

through Jase’s window?”

I kept looking. I wasn’t sure what to say. A man can live a long and

adventurous life without ever being spoken to by Lacey Pemberton, and

when that rare opportunity does arise, one does not wish to misspeak. So

Ben spoke for me. “Yeah, they hung out,” Ben said, as if Margo and I were

tight.

“Was she mad at me?” Lacey asked after a moment. She was looking

down; I could see her brown eye shadow.

“What?”

She spoke quietly then, the tiniest crack in her voice, and all at once

Lacey Pemberton was not Lacey Pemberton. She was just—like, a person.

“Was she, you know, pissed at me about something?”

I thought about how to answer that for a while. “Uh, she was a little

disappointed that you didn’t tell her about Jase and Becca, but you know

Margo. She’ll get over it.”

Lacey started walking down the hall. Ben and I let her go, but then she

slowed down. She wanted us to walk with her. Ben nudged me, and then we

started walking together. “I didn’t even know about Jase and Becca. That’s

the thing. God, I hope I can explain that to her soon. For a while, I was

really worried that maybe she had like really left, but then I went into her

locker ’cause I know her combination and she still has all her pictures up

and everything, and all her books are stacked there.”

“That’s good,” I said.

“Yeah, but it’s been like four days. That’s almost a record for her. And

you know, this has really sucked, because Craig knew, and I was so pissed

at him for not telling me that I broke up with him, and now I’m out a prom

date, and my best friend is off wherever, in New York or whatever, thinking

I did something I would NEVER do.” I shot a look to Ben. Ben shot a look

back to me.

“I have to run to class,” I said. “But why do you say she’s in New

York?”

“I guess she told Jase like two days before she left that New York was

the only place in America where a person could actually live a halfway

livable life. Maybe she was just saying it. I don’t know.”

“Okay, I gotta run,” I said.

I knew Ben would never convince Lacey to go to prom with him, but I

figured he at least deserved the opportunity. I jogged through the halls

toward my locker, rubbing Radar’s head as I ran past him. He was talking to

Angela and a freshman girl in band. “Don’t thank me. Thank Q,” I heard

him say to the freshman, and she called out, “Thank you for my two

hundred dollars!” Without looking back I shouted, “Don’t thank me, thank

Margo Roth Spiegelman!” because of course she’d given me the tools I

needed.

I made it to my locker and grabbed my calc notebook, but then I just

stayed, even after the second bell rang, standing still in the middle of the

hallway while people rushed past me in both directions, like I was the

median in their freeway. Another kid thanked me for his two hundred

dollars. I smiled at him. The school felt more mine than in all my four years

there. We’d gotten a measure of justice for the bikeless band geeks. Lacey

Pemberton had spoken to me. Chuck Parson had apologized.

I knew these halls so well—and finally it was starting to feel like they

knew me, too. I stood there as the third bell rang and the crowds dwindled.

Only then did I walk to calc, sitting down just after Mr. Jiminez had started

another interminable lecture.

I’d brought Margo’s copy of Leaves of Grass to school, and I started

reading the highlighted parts of “Song of Myself” again, under the desk

while Mr. Jiminez scratched away at the blackboard. There were no direct

references to New York that I could see. I handed it to Radar after a few

minutes, and he looked at it for a while before writing on the corner of his

notebook closest to me, The green highlighting must mean something.

Maybe she wants you to open the door of your mind? I shrugged, and wrote

back, Or maybe she just read the poem on two different days with two

different highlighters.

A few minutes later, as I glanced toward the clock for only the thirty-

seventh time, I saw Ben Starling standing outside the classroom door, a hall

pass in his hand, dancing a spastic jig.

When the bell rang for lunch, I raced to my locker, but somehow Ben had

beaten me there, and somehow he was talking to Lacey Pemberton. He was

crowding her, slumping slightly so he could talk toward her face. Talking to

Ben could make me feel a little claustrophobic sometimes, and I wasn’t

even a hot girl.

“Hey, guys,” I said when I got up to them.

“Hey,” Lacey answered, taking an obvious step back from Ben. “Ben

was just bringing me up-to-date on Margo. No one ever went into her room,

you know. She said her parents didn’t allow her to have friends over.”

“Really?” Lacey nodded. “Did you know that Margo owns, like, a

thousand records?”

Lacey threw up her hands. “No, that’s what Ben was saying! Margo

never talked about music. I mean, she would say she liked something on the

radio or whatever. But—no. She’s so weird.”

I shrugged. Maybe she was weird, or maybe the rest of us were weird.

Lacey kept talking. “But we were just saying that Walt Whitman was from

New York.”

“And according to Omnictionary, Woody Guthrie lived there for a long

time, too,” Ben said.

I nodded. “I can totally see her in New York. I think we have to figure

out the next clue, though. It can’t end with the book. There must be some

code in the highlighted lines or something.”

“Yeah, can I look at it during lunch?”

“Yeah,” I said. “Or I can make you a copy in the library if you want.”

“Nah, I can just read it. I mean, I don’t know crap about poetry. Oh, but

anyway, I have a cousin in college there, at NYU, and I sent her a flyer she

could print. So I’m going to tell her to put them up in record stores. I mean,

I know there are a lot of record stores, but still.”

“Good idea,” I said. They started to walk to the cafeteria, and I followed

them.

“Hey,” Ben asked Lacey, “what color is your dress?”

“Um, it’s kind of sapphire, why?”

“Just want to make sure my tux matches,” Ben said. I’d never seen

Ben’s smile so giddy-ridiculous, and that’s saying something, because he

was a fairly giddy-ridiculous person.

Lacey nodded. “Well, but we don’t want to be too matchy-matchy.

Maybe if you go traditional: black tux and a black vest?”

“No cummerbund, you don’t think?”

“Well, they’re okay, but you don’t want to get one with really fat pleats,

you know?”

They kept talking—apparently, the ideal level of pleat-fatness is a

conversational topic to which hours can be devoted—but I stopped listening

as I waited in the Pizza Hut line. Ben had found his prom date, and Lacey

had found a boy who would happily talk prom for hours. Now everyone had

a date—except me, and I wasn’t going. The only girl I’d want to take was

off tramping some kind of perpetual journey or something.

When we sat down, Lacey started reading “Song of Myself,” and she

agreed that none of it sounded like anything and certainly none of it

sounded like Margo. We still had no idea what, if anything, Margo was

trying to say. She gave the book back to me, and they started talking about

prom again.

All afternoon, I kept feeling like it wasn’t doing any good to look at the

highlighted quotes, but then I would get bored and reach into my backpack

and put the book on my lap and go back to it. I had English at the end of the

day, seventh period, and we were just starting to read Moby Dick, so Dr.

Holden was talking quite a lot about fishing in the nineteenth century. I kept

Moby Dick on the desk and Whitman in my lap, but even being in English

class couldn’t help. For once, I went a few minutes without looking at the

clock, so I was surprised by the bell ringing, and took longer than everyone

else to get my backpack packed. As I slung it over one shoulder and started

to leave, Dr. Holden smiled at me and said, “Walt Whitman, huh?”

I nodded sheepishly.

“Good stuff,” she said. “So good that I’m almost okay with you reading

it in class. But not quite.” I mumbled sorry and then walked out to the

senior parking lot.

While Ben and Radar banded, I sat in RHAPAW with the doors open, a

slow husky breeze blowing through. I read from The Federalist Papers to

prepare for a quiz I had the next day in government, but my mind kept

returning to its continuous loop: Guthrie and Whitman and New York and

Margo. Had she gone to New York to immerse herself in folk music? Was

there some secret folk music-loving Margo I’d never known? Was she

maybe staying in an apartment where one of them had once lived? And why

did she want to tell me about it?

I saw Ben and Radar approaching in the sideview mirror, Radar

swinging his sax case as he walked quickly toward RHAPAW. They hustled

in through the already-open door, and Ben turned the key and RHAPAW

sputtered, and then we hoped, and then she sputtered again, and then we

hoped some more, and finally she gurgled to life. Ben raced out of the

parking lot and turned off campus before saying to me, “CAN YOU

BELIEVE THIS SHIT!” He could hardly contain his glee.

He started hitting the car’s horn, but of course the horn didn’t work, so

every time he hit it, he just yelled, “BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! HONK IF

YOU’RE GOING TO PROM WITH TRUE-BLUE HONEYBUNNY

LACEY PEMBERTON! HONK, BABY, HONK!”

Ben could hardly shut up the whole way home. “You know what did it?

Aside from desperation? I guess she and Becca Arrington are fighting

because Becca’s, you know, a cheater, and I think she started to feel bad

about the whole Bloody Ben thing. She didn’t say that, but she sort of acted

it. So in the end, Bloody Ben is going to get me some puh-lay-hey.” I was

happy for him and everything, but I wanted to focus on the game of getting

to Margo.

“Do you guys have any ideas at all?”

It was quiet for a moment, and then Radar looked at me through the

rearview mirror and said, “That doors thing is the only one marked different

from the others, and it’s also the most random; I really think that’s the one

with the clue. What is it again?”

“‘Unscrew the locks from the doors! / Unscrew the doors themselves

from their jambs!’” I replied.

“Admittedly, Jefferson Park is not really the best place to unscrew the

doors of closed-mindedness from their jambs,” Radar allowed. “Maybe

that’s what she’s saying. Like the paper town thing she said about Orlando?

Maybe she’s saying that’s why she left.”

Ben slowed for a stoplight and then turned around to look at Radar.

“Bro,” he said, “I think you guys are giving Margo Honey-bunny way too

much credit.”

“How’s that?” I asked.

“Unscrew the locks from the doors,” he said. “Unscrew the doors

themselves from their jambs.”

“Yeah,” I said. The light turned green and Ben hit the gas. RHAPAW

shuddered like she might disintegrate but then began to move.

“It’s not poetry. It’s not metaphor. It’s instructions. We are supposed to

go to Margo’s room and unscrew the lock from the door and unscrew the

door itself from its jamb.”

Radar looked at me in the rearview mirror, and I looked back at him.

“Sometimes,” Radar said to me, “he’s so retarded that he becomes kind of

brilliant.”